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下午因为听说 听说课 不能缺人,于是就去英语体验中心玩了一把扫雷(当时我可是已经把所有单元都听完了的啊),有一次,491秒成功通了高级难度。然后不知道是不是因为我在昨晚快12点的时候发的说说让他看不下去了,我爸给我发了一堆心灵鸡汤,我非常感动,然后告诉他:“辛苦你了,但是这些鸡汤我是不会喝的。”接着他和我各种BB,于是我浪费了下午四点,下午五点,两个小时的时间来写QQ邮件和他撕逼。 然后,我有创作灵感了!我知道了人性原来可以这么丑陋——不论你多么努力让自己成为一个可以讲道理的人,一个完整的人,你还是会被一个低智商的人整疯,然后你的智商就会和他一样低,最终变成和他一样的低能儿。(不过这并不是我要在我的动画电影中表现的伪命题。)更重要的是,我获得了一种新颖的,由士气一般到精神充沛的过程的体验,并且记忆深刻。我当时的心情是:我现在精力充沛,我很高兴,谢谢你,爸爸你给我去死吧。不得不说,如果这些全是他预谋的,那么他的计划真是高明至极!他成功地引起了我的注意,并且让我有了想把他一拳砸死并将自己的事迹大书特书的欲望。
“我在昨晚快12点的时候发的说说”内容如下:
I'm now feeling quite clear that I'm drifting far away from NSDN. I'm no longer an adept technician who is helpful but an lost artist who doesn't know where and whom to ask for help and a reclusive idealist who speaks bullshits everyday in NSDN group. Almost none of my questions asking for in-depth truth are responded. Seems like I really have to walk alone on the journey to my hanging dreams and wisdom.
I know what supported me to stay alive physically. I already became a zombie and died when I was in senior high, only my unfulfilled wishes are spared. And that unfulfilled wish developed the mirror image of my efforts to comfort the depressed me. Of course, I already sensed that this soul has been obselete, but that's how I recover and get my power back when I'm feeling down. The solution was the decayed me, the shadow of my past warm spirit.
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